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Name: Beanz and meee
Interests: dancing in the rain. spinning really fast then falling down, true love, friends, people that can make you laugh, yeling at andrew, falling in love, lacrosse, field hockey, music, fighting with t.j over the stupids thing, rock bands, hanging out with best friends,boyys,leaders. all my pacaa friends, PACAA, , noelle, molly, abbie, desriee, michelle, nicole, and all those other people, tanning, eating ice cream on a hot day, paintballing, sluprees, water ballon fights with richie, t.j, mike, kimmy, matt and jeff, skipping luch study, sleepovers, getting caught in the rain, cell phones, text messaging, computer, sitting on my brother's big brown chair, talking on the phone, passing notes, writting notes... friends are my life!NOELLE CARNEY IS MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE DAMN WORLDDDDD!One heart attack, and you stumble lost into a light you make so brightly false, and I watch as blood spills down your arm and makes its way to me.
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Member Since:
12/1/2003
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NEW SITE ON_BENDED_KNEES<33333333
<3 Courtney its tara im gonna make you a new xanga its gonna be on_bended_knees the one you started to make well im gonna fionsh it for you i love you
<33333 tara!!
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| Has he ever made you cry?
All the tears that you have cried
Hasn’t that ever want to make you die
Has he ever hurt you so bad?
That you start to cut yourself and then bleed
And you wished all this pain won’t continue to proceed
Have you ever wished that he knew how you felt inside?
So that all your feelings won’t have to hide
Has he ever cheated on you?
That you wished all this wasn’t true
Have you ever looked into his eyes?
And then he gave you all his horrible lies
Has he ever hurt you so bad that you still can’t let go
Even though he went down so far low
Has he ever treat you like a dog or like some ho/e
And then the next day he acts like if he didn’t even know
Have you ever tried to tell him what your feeling looking into his eyes with every word you say
But every time you try to he always looks away
Has he ever been so strange when he’s the nice guy but then the mean guy
And all this pressure just makes you sigh
And then wonder if all this was a lie
Has he ever broke your heart
And said to you “I think its time to be apart”
I wish you never said goodbye,
i wish you never let it die,
but you did,
and now all i do is cry.
Love is like a rose. It could be the most WONDERFUL feeling in the world. or it could be so HURTFUL it makes you want to kill yourself. It may seem beutiful at 1 time but it only blackens and fades into death.
she has eyliner running from the tears she cried and she looks in the mirror and wispers "he will never love me"
before i got to bed i turn on my radio
and listen to a song that reminds me of you*
i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like
to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy.
everybody swears we make the perfect pair
yeah, i said i'm glad it's over, to tell you the truth
if you haven't found somebody new, i hope you do
i said i didn't miss you at all, i ever waited for you to call
and i never cried, but to tell you the truth .. i lied.
am i not pretty enough? is my heart too broken?
do i cry too much? am i too outspoken?
don't i make you laugh? should i try it hardeR?
why do you see right through me?
I thought that I was over you, but then when I see you again, my face turns red and I get really nervous, now when my freinds ask I try to deny it but then inside I wonder, do I still Love him?
what happened??
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| Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends . . . the I miss yous . . .And the I LOVE yous . . . And the What are we doing tonights? . . . somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing and growing And the skipping classes, the studying for tests, And the pretending to be studying for tests, And the downright not studying for tests, I forgot . . . I forgot what it meant to cry . . . I forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy . . . I f o r g o t that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart . . . And that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok . . . I forgot that you cant just forget the past in fear of the future . . . I forgot that you cant control falling in love . . . And that you cant make yourself fall in love . . . I learned . . . I learned that I can love . . . I learned that its ok to mess up . . . And its ok to ask for help . . . And its ok to feel like crap . . . I learned its ok to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day . . . That somehow they'll make it all better . . . I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just cant have . . . I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't going to be who is the most popular or going to be the parties . . . Or the drinking not even the hook-ups . . . Its the friendships, which means taking chances . . . I learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to TALK out . . . I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing . . . And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better . . . But, basically, I just learned that my friends, Both old and new, Are the most important people to me in the world .
a true test of best friend isnt being unseperable
but being seperated & nothing changes
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| heyyy
lastnight-my mom and dad took me and matt out to dinner then we went to the movies... we saw the longest yard it was ok.. then after the movie matt was jumping these lines and things and then we took him home around 10
today- im at schoolo and the pini is canclled i think but o well then i got a text message from matt and then we text yesica's mom about it and sehe was like wait hold where is this boy now and then she was like courtney if you cant get one you get another thats BETTERRR! </3 Boys suck but whats new
X3 Courtney
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